About me

So let me tell you about my week.

Sunday I had this weird feeling that I was getting sick. Tuesday I was in so much pain. Horrible Headaches and Body aches. cramping. Fever and chills. So uncomfortable. Wednesday, same problem. Went to the doctor, she said I had Upper respiratory Infection and since I had been watching Grey's Anatomy ALL week I knew that it was a virus, which means it can't be fixed, It just has to die on its own. She giggled when I told her I knew so much from Grey's Anatomy...Thursday, not so much pain, still pretty weak but better. I thought I was going to die or that If I went into the hospital, they would find a tumor or a cancer cell.

I am a hypochondriac. I see/hear the worst. I don't consider myself a pessimist or a downer, but maybe I lack faith or trust. I don't trust people. So from the start, I dont give people the benefit of the doubt, whatever that phrase means. I spell check because I care. I care what people think about me. I think I care too much what people think about me. I am sensitive, overly sensitive. One time I cried because they ran out of pb&j. pb&j people. Come on. I am not a daddy's girl. I don't always get what I want. I get what I deserve because I do the right thing and because I believe I have a good heart, Good intentions. I act lazy because I am. I don't want to think I can do better, But my mom knows I can. When I visit home, she tells all her friends how much of an angel I am. She sees me how she remembers me. I am a angel but Ive done things and said things she doesn't know about and that hurts the most. That's where I get my view of things/people from I guess. My wonderful mother and father. I see people/things/places/memories how I want to see them, even if they have changed for better or worse.

That's me, but its not really. Someone wise told me that things that I just described above dont define people, because those things( flaws) are NOT constants. people are changing for better or worse.

Got that?